Read on for more details of my personal DRAMAZ, if curious.
I am still job hunting, and I’ve had some epiphany moments about what I should be doing with my life. I’m having an actual Mid-Life Crisis!
I’m still unemployed, at least in the sense of having a full-time job with medical benefits, which is actually kind of important. Since, you know, Mid-Life is when everything breaks.
I’ve had some interviews for the sort of high level, higher education administration stuff that I’ve been doing since I got laid off in Michigan, and I think most of them have gone well. I’m hoping for an offer soon.
You see, being in a Vice-Provost’s office or a Dean’s office is not my natural habitat. It’s not just the suit-wearing, although I do NOT enjoy suits. It’s the people in the offices. No. Sense. Of. Humor.
Most days we ate lunch together in the break room with the Assistant/Associate/Interim Vice Provosts and other upper admin functionaries. And one day there was a discussion about fruits and vegetables: what was the difference?
Usually I just tried to stay below the radar screen of VPs, but here was a question I could answer!
“Your tomato is a ripened ovary”, I said. “That is the definition of a fruit.”
“We don’t talk about ovaries here” said my boss in a hushed voice. “It’s not appropriate for the workplace.”
And that, pretty much, sums up why I have decided to stop Batmanning.
If you aren’t familiar with the term, it’s basically having two separate identities–one secret, one open. If you’ve met me, you know that I’m basically Bug Girl. Her personality is me, turned up to 11.
I can be NOT-Bug-Girl long enough to put on a suit and function from 9 to 5 as a high level manager. But…WHY am I doing that?
Instead of hiding my secret identity, why don’t I just find a job that lets me wear the cape and tights all day, every day?
Maintaining both an IRL life and an online life is not sustainable. I suspect that if I am able to be creative and have fun in my real world work, I won’t be driven to have a blog that is constantly pushing boundaries.
I have been doing some consulting work for different nature centers, and you know what? I actually love working from home! And I stay on task even better than in an office, which I did not expect. Bonus: no suits. In fact, no pants.
So the next round of applications I’m sending out have nothing to do with Higher Education. They are internet companies, or nature centers, or places where ideas are more important than how you look and what you wear. I need someplace that will feed my soul, as well as my pocketbook.
Cross your tarsi for me that this isn’t a terrible idea.